User talk:SocialCasualty

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extremely small side note: if you're wondering why you're getting this message on this random af sandbox of mine, it's because i realized i wasn't able to dm you and i wasn't about to ask about all of this on darp nor my publically available sandboxes sksks
 * okay so:
 * it wouldn't be me if i didn't come with some long af backstory. but i'll try to keep it brief. basically, every time the conversation has shifted to you among me and my friends, i go and look at your name in my list of friends. i don't know why i do it, i just do. there's just something about looking at your place in my discord friends that makes me do this. so imagine my surprise today when the thing happened again. you were brought up in a conversation, and i went to go look at your place among my discord friends. so i guess my question is...why? i'm just really confused because even though we haven't spoke, i still thought we were on good terms so like...did i do something? i'm just really curious, i guess.

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👉👈 pt. 2
oop i had no idea i was going to get a reply this soon. btw, you can just say you unfriended me and aera sksksks
 * ngl, i was tempted not to reply to your message at all but that felt wrong somehow. you weren't causing any trouble! i was just really confused because even if we never spoke, i don't think we ended things bad enough that warranted the whole unfriending thing. tbh there were times where i really wanted to just message you, even if it was just to send a tiktok. and there wasn't any romantic feelings attached to that, i just wanted to talk to you normally like if we were friends again. but there was always that part of me that was either like, "it's kinda rude to yeet into your ex-fwb's dms and be like, 'i'm not in love with you anymore let's be friends again' or "sksks what if we start talking again AND i end up falling in love again AND i end up getting clowned TWICE". but most of all, i didn't know if you were still hurting or not, and i didn't want to intrude or make things worse and message out of the blue like if nothing didn't happen. it really sounds like you are still hurting, so i guess that this is the last time i'll message you in either a very long time or ever. i hope you and your family and your grandmother especially are safe in these coming weeks!

왜 이렇게 밤이 길고 왜 이렇게 잠은 안 와?  – exo-cbx, sweet dreams  18:11, March 13, 2020 (UTC)

outro: love is not over, because the outro is superior to the full length version everytime
i can keep you from my mind for periods at a time, but you always end up stumbling back into my mind whether i ask for it or not. everytime that happens, it just confirms one of the thoughts i had after our breakup: that no matter what, if we end up interacting again, i'll always fall in love with you again. no matter what. i can hear about yku and how you're doing, and my thoughts instantly turn to 🥺. if God created someone for every person on Earth, then why did he decide that circumstances couldn't give me mine? i might've taken an entire ethics class that i'm failing and yet i couldn't give a coherent answer to why that might be. you always did say that i managed to have a good response to everything, but all i'm running on is my impulsive emotions. i'm probably going to scare you away from any further communication with me, but i couldn't let another message from you go unanswered. it's so peculiar that i knew you for the best of eight? nine? ten? weeks yet i'm still super weak for you. you're such a wonderful person and i'm so mean and i'm just dumping emotions on you for No Real Reason other to let you know how i feel and yet my heart is still all yours. why is this? i can't have my happily ever after with you, but i love you just the same. why do we keep searching the universe for each other when we can't ever be? star-crossed lovers, that's all we'll ever be. it hurts so damn much not have something i really want. it hurts so damn much that i've broken down the wall i built up against you because i can't handle the fact that sometimes you hurt because you miss me and i miss you too but it's not like we could do anything about it anyway. it hurts not being able to talk to you. there's been so many time i've wanted to just spam you with everything i've wanted to tell you. to all the random conversations we could've had. to all the tiktoks that i wanted to send to you. to all the loving messages i wanted to send over and over again because you're loved 100% by me and you deserved all the love ever. to someone that truly made up my other half, because we're similar and we balance each other out so much. to all the ships that we had, to all the planning we could've done, to all the vines that could've binded you to me. i couldn't even stay mad at you for leaving. i can't stay mad at someone that i know is a good person who tends to make some bad decisions sometimes. i can only be upset that i can't have you in this lifetime. that's all. sorry for permanently scaring you away now. life updates? i started my first semester of community college only to have it ruined by coronavirus. i thought about you every day on the way home from classes. i began thriving and dying on darp. i stole some of your ships with aera because you already know i'm super mean and that was the only petty descions i could make. i cried over you sometimes. i wish i could've spent valentine's day with you. i nearly messaged you so many times, but i didn't. i can't listen to that shawn mendes song that made me start talking to you. it's still in my library, and i've never once finished listening to it if i decide to try and listen. it sucks not being able to go outside. i'm the biggest introvert ever but i still loved going outside sometimes. i wonder how quarantine would've been if i spent it with you. i never finished haikyuu because it made me think of you too much. instead, i watch berenstain bears becausw their life morals are honestly really dope. i play toontown on the daily now. and i started roleplaying elsewhere because i still feel out of place on chb and darp is dead now. i started becoming a bigger fan of bts. jungkook is fucking hot. namjoon is still the og bae. but jungkook? fuck, he's hot. just one day is my new favorite song and i think about you when i hear it. unlike the shawn mendes song. the thought of us being the same brand, as you put it, comforts me a lot sometimes. it's nice to know that you're not alone in how you feel sometimes. too bad we're both cowards and to quote charlie puth, we don't talk anymore. if it makes you feel better...i'm also rewatching avatar. that also makes me think of you. i've let out all of my emotions now, so i'll be going now. here's my discord info because we can never have too much impulsiveness: livi#3915. i wish you had told me you'd only unfriended me and aera, because it kinda hurted me when i saw that we still had mutual friends. ah, well. i can't cry over split milk, but i can sure cry over you again! ah, it was nice semi-talking to you. i hope you're okay. and i'll go now. like bts says, love is painful, but goodbyes are even more painful. 💙.

- livi